REFLECTION

PROJECT

   

     I never knew how things could have gotten so fast. It feels like everytime I blink my eyes the days fade away quickly. So now here I am typing about my reflection for this third grading period. Yes, you read it right. We are now already in third grading period which only means that we still have one grading left before we end this school year. 

           Well I can say that this grading has been tough for me.Why? Because of one word, PROJECT. Our project for this grading is to make a whole website. Thinking about this project really made me sick, I don't even know how and when to start. It's kind of hard knowing I'll be the one to create the overall project because I believe it's my work as a leader of the group. I have some knowledges about this project but I don't think it's already enough.

        So what I did is  to have a research on internet and it works, it really helps me a lot and of course I can't do it without the help of my groupmates. I assigned them to work on the different parts of the website. Some of them did their parts but also some of them didn't. I guess that's the thing about having a team project, you can not just depend on your groupmates because you can't expect all of them to be cooperative. At the end of the day, I was glad because we make it. We passed it on time. It felt really good that after putting all your time, efforts and hard works on that project, it became successfully finished.  

             What I've learn during this whole thing is you can't please everyone to help you but at the end of the day there's always that one person who is willing to offer a hand for you and in every problem there's always a solution so instead of worrying about it, seek for solutions. And that's how I spend most of my time for this grading. It all revolves in a a project.

               

            Moving on, I will continue to apply what I've learn and I will always look forward for more exciting moments for the next grading period.

               

                   

             

                

NEW YEAR, NEW CHANCE

                   

                    It's been a traditional routine especially for us Filipinos to have our new year's resolution and that's because we wanted for a change. Of course, who doesn't like a change? As they said, the only thing that is permanent in this world is CHANGE so whether you like it or not you just have to adopt yourself with it and just enjoy the flow. I guess that's how our lives go on.

                      

               It is always good to start a year with a change, positive changes to be specific. So that's most of us usually do when new year comes. Listing our new year's resolutions, Swearing we will never repeat the same mistakes again, doing our best to become a better person and of course if the year is new then you should also be able to come up a new version of yourself. New Year, New Me! But the truth is, do we really put in actions those words that we said? Do we mean it when we said we're ready for a change? We keep saying that, this year I'm gonna change but it turns out that we're doing the same old things in our lives because that is what I observed mostly to myself.

                        Every start of the year I always say, I swear I'm gonna change. I swear I will not be mad if my parents can't give the things I want. I swear I'm not going into fight anymore. I swear I'll be nice. I swear........ blah blah blah, things like that. Then after a year I find myself swearing the same thing all over again. That's when I realized that it is easy to say but it's hard to walk with your talk. Do you ever experience that  no matter how much you wanted to change there is always blocking your way and that thing called temptation?Well I experience it and guess what? I'm not strong enough to fight it, that's why I never change. I just keep repeating the same mistakes and that's very disappointing.  

                               

                           So now, I'm not saying that I'll be able to fulfill all the things that I've been swearing repeatedly every new year but I will try it again and this time with full determination in the sincerest way that I could because I believe that New Year is not just for a change, it's also for a chance.

                             A chance to make everything's better. A chance to set things right. A chance for improvement, better luck, better life and of course another chance to explore the beauty of the world together with our love ones. A chance to become fiercer and braver so that for the next new years of your lives you'll be able to fight any kind of temptations and everything that will block you in your journey to a better change.

A Christmas without him..

Christmas lanterns are hanging, Christmas lights continue glowing and Santa Statues have been scattered everywhere. The Daddy and the older brother are both busy building Christmas tree while the mother and the baby sister are decorating it. Great, what a big happy family.

Children are going from home to home singing Christmas songs, they’re so happy as if they don’t have any problems. Stores are crowded because people are too busy looking for Christmas present and they’re all smiling. Kids can’t help their selves from getting excited hoping they’ll meet Santa Claus.

I can already feel cold air of Christmas yet I can’t feel its essence even though all around me seems to remind the spirit of Christmas.

How?...

How can celebrate Christmas if I’m not complete? If something is missing like a piece of puzzle that can never be found. I hate to spoil the happiness from their faces so I just pretend to be alright in front of them but the truth is the totally opposite. I’m not okay, I’m not even close of being alright because I miss him.

Staying in this cold dark room gave me enough time to reminisce those times when I’m with him. I wasn’t like this before, I was a happy girl until I lost him. I miss hearing his voice, I miss listening to his stories, I miss laughing with him. I miss everything about him. Too bad, no matter how much I wanted to have him this Christmas he will no longer come back and I bet his happy right now.

I wonder if he’s seeing  what I’m doing right now? Does he? Because sometimes I can feel his presence even if I can’t see him. Those decorations, foods and gifts are useless. I don’t need all those things. I need my grandpa with me. This is the first Christmas that I’ll be celebrating without him. God, I miss him so much but I know I can’t do about it anymore. So for him, I’ll enjoy this Christmas because I know we didn’t want me to be sad. Life must go on as they said but I’ll treasure forever every Christmas with him.

I think all that matters in Christmas is your family. Being with them is the greatest give you can ever receive in Christmas and that’s the essence of it.